Last night Janlac and I had a crazy food trip. We headed to Limketkai since she craved for siomai and me for cake. we drop at Limketkai but it was already closed. We actually taught there is a midnight sale but instead it was Robinsons who was having a midnight sale. So we bought siomai there and a Crema de fruta from Cecil's.

We were really laughing because we bought so much food and we haven't even finished everything since we're already feeling very full. It was one awesome night of girl bonding and sharing of everything including Janlac's passion to spicy sauces. OMG! My mouth was really in heat trying that spicy sauce in my pizza. I just realized that even if Janlac and I have different taste and likes we still manage to compliment with each other. The difference was never an issue for us to be closer with each other. :)

"Its Ok!" "It will pass...." "You'll be fine..." "Just smile..." "Think positive..." Sometimes no matter how many comforting words said to you by your friends its still don't ease the pain and confusion. Problems drag us down and break us even if we tried so hard to keep on track and solve it. Negativity. The most powerful energy that I've tried so hard not to get caught up with. But its still in just one touch it breaks everything that I built. I've always been trying to stay positive. To always look on the brighter and lighter side of everything. But now everything seems to be blurry. Maybe because I kept everything inside. And little by little it grows up inside me that I couldn't take it anymore. Too bad negative energy catch me easily. I maybe vocal to everyone but when it comes to serious matters, pains and problems I kept it inside. I used to pour this out but now the one person who use to patiently listen to me is already far. I'm so tired of crying . My tears has been my avid comforter ever since. If only I'm not afraid to die I would have killed myself already. I actually tried this many times yet its unsuccessful. Its hard just to let everything out because I don't know if they will understand me. Ive been to so many things in my life. So many mistakes. So many heartaches and pains. So many sins. And behind all this battle I fought alone. Its hard but I had no choice, its do or die.

I don't know if there's someone who would understand and listen to everything I would tell. Its been a long, unhappy journey and I doubt it if there would be someone who can endure it. And in the end comforts me with a hug and wipe my tears. I don't know where, I don't know when and I don't know where... But one things for sure I need some one who will see me as I AM not for who I have and don't have.

As I was checking my old stuffs that I kept in a box I saw this letter that Teddy Bear gave to me. It was a simple Christmas letter with a message and poem attached in it. The poem is written by Teddy Bear (Cecilia Cagape) dedicated to Tweety (Marie Ann Amarille) and Bugs Bunny (me) dated December 17, 1999.

Bestfriends

Friends are so wonderful
They makes my day beautiful
When I'm lonely...
They are there to comfort me.

They are special
They are not artificial
But best friends are more special
Because they makes my life more normal.

Whenever I feel sad
They will not make me feel bad
Instead, they find a way
to make me feel not dismay.

Even we made our self cry
We still do the best we
We try and hoping not to fight
Because we're afraid to lose our friendship like a candle light.

They are always there
Ready to help me so desr
They take away my loneliness
And pour my heart with happiness.

In them, I found the real meaning of a true friendship
It is more than a relationship
Which no one can break, even a spaceship.

Because of them, My life seems enjoyable
Without them, It would be questionable
So Thank you Lord for Having them
As my wonderful Bestfriends.

In celebration with CDOBloggers, Inc. first year anniversary, CDObloggers went overnight camping at Mapawa Nature Park last Saturday and a whole day bonding on Sunday. I wasn't able to joined the overnight but me and Cherry followed on Sunday morning. It was an enjoyable experienced while riding a motor vehicle up to the mountain. Both Cherry and me where busy laughing and at the same time was scared we might fall at the cliffs we've passed by. When we arrived we were having a good chat and big laughs again with the other's who were there at the overnight camping. They were talking about the past night's experiences and activities. It was fun seeing everyone again since organizing Mindanao Bloggers Summit 3! I've missed the bonding we had... :D

Hey yah all! Got a new look today. These past few days I had been working from 9 in the morning to 12 midnight facing the computer because of some deadline to catch for work. The result is that my eyes aches and I have to wear my graded eyeglasses again. I haven't worn this for many years already and I’m not used to it anymore. But I have no choice I have to wear this until my eyes are not aching anymore.