You know when you reach the point of your life that you’re so tired of people around you. Tired of always following what they want. I've always been the type of person who always follow what everyone wants and adjust myself to the situation or to the person. I just keep silent even if i'm no longer comfortable or tired. I always please everyone to like me and in order to fit in.
I guess lately that change a bit... lately all I wanna do is make myself happy and not pressure myself in making other people to like me. I never thought Id reach this point... but i'm probably tired of pleasing people around me. I just felt that the more I please and follow them, the more I feel hurt and lost my drive to live in this world.
I feel uninspired day by day thinking, hearing, or reading people expectations on what I should do and I shouldn’t.
I feel like I have no right to do what I want.
I feel like they are saying those coz i'm often wrong in the end and so I have no right to decide on my life.
I feel so restricted to be me... to be happy...
Yes, I've made mistakes. I mess up most of the time. I've made bad decisions. But don't I deserved to be me and be happy because of it?
Freedom and Peace. Why is it so hard to get?